38+1 day

That looks like I'm pregnant doesn't it? I'm certainly not! I'm 38 plus 1 day, it seems really old when in my head I'm about 15, I feel quite young compared to the other Mothers at Izzy's school when actually I'm probably somewhere in the middle age wise, I wonder if I'll ever mentally mature?!

Thank you for all your birthday greetings, very sweet of you, I love that cake has negative calories on your birthday, I didn't actually eat any but I certainly will now, surely it counts in your birthday week too! I mainly got money for my birthday, I'm hoping that I will need new clothes soon but what I really want is a gorgeous handbag, one that will last for years and years, one that will make me smile when I look at it. I think that I fancy a Mulberry handbag (http://www.mulberry.com/) Not sure which one yet, maybe the Somerset tote in chocolate. I'm hoping to get to a Mulberry outlet shop and get one cheaper, they can be really expensive.

Paul cooked me a fantastic Thai green chicken curry last night and I'm going out with friends on Saturday night. My present to myself was a ticket to a book reading tonight, I'm going alone as although I could have found someone to come with me I don't think that they would enjoy it so I'm happy to enjoy it alone!

I weighed myself this morning and I was 14st 10 lbs (206 lbs) I've been stuck around this weight for months! It was better than I expected and I'm back on track today so I feel ok about it, hoping for a loss tomorrow.

Its my birthday and I didn't make it!

Surprise surprise! I didn't get anywhere near my goal, in fact I didn't even weigh myself today, it's been that bad.

I'm in its my birthday and I'll eat what I want to mode! (isn't that a song??) I know that I'll be back on track soon, at least I hope that I will!

I have a couple more birthday celebrations to attend but fully intend to be back to normal from tomorrow, when I'll weigh in and see what the damage is, I might even admit it here.

Hope that everyone is well, off to catch up now!

Stuck

Thank you so much for your comments on my picture, you are all very kind, I should have put a side shot on too but was a little worried that I might get caught taking photographs of myself in a ladies toilet!

I may take all milestone shots now in public loos!

There will be no milestone shots for a while as my weight is not moving at all, in fact I've gained a pound today, have no idea why, I honestly believe that I've done really well with my food and I've exercised a fair bit, I've tracked everything I've eaten on myfitnesspal but its not coming off, I know that its just one of those weeks that I have sometimes but its frustrating as hell! I'm a pound heavier than I was at my fill last week.

I walked to the gym yesterday, its 40 minutes walk along the river, was very muddy but ok other than that, I hadn't actually considered it until I told the children I was going to the gym and she said that I mustn't go on my own in the car as it wasn't "eco" so I decided to walk instead. I'm going to the gym today but won't be walking again until the mud has dried up.

Need to loose 5 pounds by Wednesday to make my birthday goal, have a feeling that this isn't going to happen without a serious case of stomach flu!

Doing anything exciting today? I have the gym, then church then not sure what, we were going to take the kids swimming but Izzy has a cold and was up in the night with croup so probably not swimming. Happy Sunday everyone x

The 50 lb picture!

Seriously rubbish picture But have been meaning to do a 50lb picture for a while. It's dawned on me that I don't have a full length mirror at home so this is me in the marks and spencers toilets this morning!
Note skinny legs and much bigger top half! Really wish I was more in proportion.


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Haven't posted much recently, really as there is nothing to really say!

Weight is the same, I think that maybe I'm not eating enough, I'm not very hungry in the morning after my last fill so will have a little fruit and then not eat until lunch time, I'm not eating all of my calories and the scale isn't really moving, I ate breakfast this morning so will see if that makes a difference. My fill is fine, I'm not finding it that different from before which is ok as I feel I wasn't far away, I've not been stuck or struggled at all.

I'm wearing my size 18 m&s skirt today, it fits just fine. I did buy some jeggings in a UK size 16 the other day, they fit! But then they are stretchy, they give me the most horrific muffin top so won't be wearing them for a while.

It's my birthday next Wednesday, I'm not mentioning my goal!

Off to catch up on blogs, I've still got my head stuck in vampire books and I'm being neglectful!

Paranoid fill

Thanks for all your comments on my 50 pounds down post, I'm still there! Will not mention anything about my birthday goal!

I went for a fill yesterday, was talking to a nice lady who was there for an unfill, her band had suddenly tightened and she was in a lot of pain and discomfort, I let her go ahead of me but by the time I was in with the nurse I was paranoid about being overfull too. The company are only in London once a week and I have no idea where I would need to go get an unfill, A&E wouldn't do a thing. I'd intended to ask for either .1 or .25 of a cc, the nurse said that she's put in .5, we did that and I think that I felt a little gurgling so reduced it to .4, I think that it would have been fine, it was just going down slowly but I don't really know how it feels when it is too full and I was in full paranoid mode. I think that 0.4 will do just fine.

They were really pleased with my weight loss and said I was a star pupil! Am very happy.

Isobel had her educational psychologist appointment yesterday, we all went to take her, the lady was very nice and Isobel was very at ease with her so we went off and left them to it. I wasn't there when Paul collected her and we won't know too much until we get the full report but she didn't say that she had an ism and I'm very happy about that. She did say that Izzy feel a lot of internal pressure to perform at school and she also feels a lot of pressure within herself to mother George (I find this bit astounding) as she's the oldest. She said that she has a reading age of 10.5 (she's 6). The ed psych said that she was very interesting as where she is hugely advanced in some areas in others she is average and that would be extremely frustrating for her. I'm so happy that its over for now, am a little scared of the report but I'll get over it.

Hope that everyone has a good weekend, I'm going to the gym, taking Izzy for a haircut and then visiting one of her school friends so the girls can play and Raquel and I can chat, will be really nice, the boys are going to play with George's new football. Not sure what is happening beyond that.

50 down!

The scale said 14st 7lbs (203 lbs) today, I'm really happy with that, I saw it last week and then gained some back! That means I am down a total of 50 pounds, its my 11 month bandiversary on Friday, would love to loose another pound, I have a fill in the afternoon.

Went back to the gym today, my first visit in 11 days due to the kids being ill or off school, it felt really quite hard, I'm fighting off a cold and didn't sleep well last night so I'm sure that that didn't help.

Its my birthday soon and I'd so love to be under 200 lbs for it, as soon as I make statements like this I go off the rails so I'm not going to dwell on it too much, I have 2 weeks to loose 4 pounds, you'd think that that would be easy, wouldn't you?

Nothing else happening at all, got a new m&s skirt which I won on ebay, it looked to me like it wouldn't fit, its a UK 18, but it fits really well, I'm very happy with it.

Izzy is back tomorrow, I've missed her so much, poor thing has to have one of her front teeth pulled out in the afternoon, really hope that its painless.

Happy Wednesday all.