Saturday, 10 March 2012

39 years young

Friday was my birthday, I'm 39, shocking!
I had a nice time and was very spoiled, the most touching thing was that the children were very anxious to get me lovely gifts and had many phone calls with Daddy at work discussing what they want him to buy, George wanted to get me a necklace and a ring and Izzy a dress and a coat! I have trained them very well!!

A friend also made me a cake in the shape of an iPhone as she knows I love mine so much, I was blown away that someone would take the time to do that for me and it tastes great!

With the above in mind the scale hasn't changed at all, still at 14st 2 (198 lbs) which is quite frankly depressing. I can eat much more just at the moment and bread doesn't seem to be a problem at all which is unusual for me, I think that this could be the exercise maybe loosening the band, would it be internal fat going? Have no idea and not sure I want to dwell on my fatty innards!

I have a fill on Tuesday, I'm ashamed to say that I'm about the same weight as last time I went which was about 3 months ago. My clinic has moved to Harley St which is off Oxford St which could be dangerous for my bank account!
I blew some birthday money yesterday on new gym kit, really needed new bra's and trousers and a top, I've blown the rest of my birthday money and much much more money on a black Mulberry Bayswater bag, I've just ordered it. I've considered this purchase for so long that I've just got up and done it, I'm bored of thinking about it now!

Am going out tonight for a birthday meals with my friends, this will be my last celebration, wonder if I can drop the 5 pounds intime for Tuesday??

Saturday, 3 March 2012

How did that happen?

From my lovely low of a week ago I appear to have gained 5 pounds!
I gained a pound almost every day and yet I've done ok, I've been working out hard (for me at least!) at the gym and my choices have been mostly good although I have been guilty of having a bit extra and justifying it as I've been to the gym.

I've been trying to learn how to run, Nora inspired me to do this. Over the last few weeks I've been doing the odd minute running, couple of minutes to recover and then run again. Yesterday I manage 31 mins on the treadmill alternating a minute walking/a minute running the whole time, very pleased that I managed it, I then did 25 minutes on the cross trainer. According to the gym machines I burned 500 calories, why then did I gain 2 pounds over night? Must be my big bulging muscles under the huge layer of fat!

Did have a NSV though, I have a top I bought from H&M months ago, can't remember what size it is but I looked like a sausage in a skin in it, I've tried it on many times at the same weight I am now and it looked dreadful. I tried it on on Friday and it looked great, fitted but not skin tight so something is obviously working.

As of today I am going to get a grip on my eating, am eating cereal without measuring and am eating more chocolate than I ought to so will start measuring/not eating so much chocolate. I'll be going to the gym tonight and I'll be taking my vitamins as I've not done that for a few days which is bad.

It's my birthday on Friday, I'll be 39! 39!!! I still feel about 15, goodness knows why people trust me to look after children!
I'm not far away from my 2 year bandiversary either, 25th of March, would be wonderful to be lower than I am now, solidly in the 13 somethings would be good rather that jumping up and down!

Happy Sunday all x

Saturday, 25 February 2012

Good morning

Thanks for everyone who advised about my aftercare decision.

I'm having a fill next month before my aftercare period is up, after that I'm going to leave it and if I feel I'll need more I might just pay as a one off or I may start the years contract, I don't have to start it immediately so I think that's what I'll do. I do like the idea of having the contract but I seems to take forever to get an appointment and that won't change even if I have a contract!

I reached another lowest low today, it's a slow road just now as I keep sabotaging myself with chocolate. I went to the gym last night and I do think that I could be partly dehydrated but the scale said 13st 11 (193 lbs) which is marvelous!

Lot's going on just now, we decided to put my car up for sale as it's terrible in snow and ice despite looking like a 4wd it's more like a ice skate. I didn't really think it through as had no idea what to replace it with, it's now sold so today is going to be spent running around trying to find a replacement!

Hope that everyone is well, am going to catch up on blogs now.

Wednesday, 15 February 2012

Hello all,

I've been here and reading fairly often, I just don't have much to say. Am doing ok, losses are slow but after gaining a little at Christmas and struggling a little I'm finally back down to 13.13 (195) I keep going a pound up then a pound down, am really hoping to get under this in the next couple of days!

My restriction is ok, not sure that my last fill made that much difference but I'm not sure that I actually needed too much anyway, I have booked my next fill for the 13th of March which was all I could get (so frustrating trying to get an appointment)

My 2 years aftercare is up at the end of March so I need to decide what to do next, I can either pay £45 a month which will continue my aftercare for a year (its a years contract) or I pay £150 per appointment, think I've been 3 or 4 times in the last year so I'm not sure what to do, maybe I'll see how things are after my next fill.

Hope everyone is well, I am reading!

Tuesday, 20 December 2011

13 something

It's 6am in the morning, I've just weighed in and the scale said 13.13 (.8!) which is 195 pounds, am thrilled, I've even changed the battery in the scale to make sure it's not playing with me.

We managed to get to London and it was fairly painless, the kids had a good time and the view from upstairs was amazing, it was a really clear day and we could see for miles.

Tomorrow (Thursday) is Isobel's birthday, today I have to make a cake for her, we've settled on a chocolate sponge with butter cream inside and around the outside with chocolate fingers the whole way around and raspberries on the top! Wish me luck for both making and not eating! I've had to negotiate this decadent cake as I can't make character cakes, I'm terrible at anything artistic. Ready made cakes from stores here tend to taste awful, I know mine will taste good but have no idea how it will look!

Have a good day all x

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Post fill update

Ooh, that sounds very official doesn't it? There is actually very little to report but here we go.

I went last Tuesday and had a fill of 0.2 to take me up to 9cc's in my 14cc band. I did 3 days fluids more or less along with some chocolate, well it turns to liquid doesn't it? Went on to soft food and was starving, I didn't think that the fill had made any difference at all and if anything I could eat more than normal.

The fill kicked in on Sunday evening of all times, am eating less, just need to cut the chocolate! Had such a busy day yesterday that I didn't have time for eating things I shouldn't and woke up to 14 0 on the scale today (196 lbs) this is my lowest low. My scale is fluctuating quite a lot before settling (ala Biggest Looser) but I jumped on twice and got the same number so I'm taking it. 13 stone something for Christmas would be amazing.

George is poorly again, big sigh, I'm actually wondering if he takes after his paternal Grandmother and is a hypochondriac! I've brought him downstairs early and managed to get him to drink some juice and have a biscuit, he didn't eat or drink at all yesterday when I was out.
I wouldn't be so bothered, he's not much of a morning eater anyway, but we're going in to London today to the BT Tower (tall and famous building in London) to meet Santa and then go up in to their revolving restaurant, this building isn't open to the public anymore and we're lucky to be able to go, just hope that he perks up, will give lots of meds! I would skip it and stay at home with George but Paul is scared of heights and high speed lifts so there is no way at all he would go up to the revolving bit which is the most exciting thing for the kids, Paul could stay with George and I'd take Isobel but it's to do with Paul's company and they wouldn't let me in without him, as it is I have to take my passport as the building is thought to be such a terrorist risk. As ever we have no option of leaving him with anyone so lots of don't moan/don't be sick/have a lovely time vibes would be appreciated!

Have a lovely Tuesday all xx

Monday, 12 December 2011

Hello Lovelies!

Can't believe that it is the 12th of December already, where is the time going?

Thanks for all the lovely comments on my last miserable post, it really does mean a lot that you take the time to read my drivel!

Everything is going ok, George is now well although he did get an ear infection after the chest infection which resulted in a late night hospital dash. Isobel had a build a bear party on Saturday which all went well, just need to make her write the thank you cards (wish me luck) Christmas is almost sorted and the kids break up TOMORROW, TOMORROW!

My weight is ok, 14st 1 today (197 lbs) I'm going for a fill tomorrow, I really need one along with an afternoons shopping in London away from my children!
I've officially lost 4 stones, it's taken almost 2 years so I'm not poster girl for the band but I'm ok with it, I'm hoping that the next 2 stone or so will come off a bit quicker!
A stone is 14lbs.

Off to catch up x