I can't quite believe it, I still feel like it won't happen.
I had a bit of a melt down last night, Paul and I were discussing arrangements for tonight as i'm staying in a hotel in central London. The thought of being there on my own fills me full of dread, I quite like my own company but I will miss him dreadfully, it made me sad thinking about the children waking up for the next 2 days and I won't be there. They know i'm going away, they don't know why, Isobel understands but George has no clue, aslong as Paul panders to his every whim he won't care at all!
I weighed in again today, i've lost another pound taking me down to 17st 8 lbs which is 246lbs. I've found this liquid diet much easier than I thought I would, i've not had any hunger pains at all which i'm suprised about and that little voice in my head is wondering if I could do it alone, I know I can't, its just the fear talking.
Won't be blogging until Friday probably, will take my itouch and see if the hospital has wifi so there might be a little update.