Gah, stayed the same

Still 15st 6lbs! (216 lbs) Although I have been this weight before I think that I only saw it on one day and then bounced up so this is kind of an achievement. It's been 3 days, I've been eating ok but did miss my gym visit yesterday.

We have the school meeting in a couple of hours, I'm dreading it, my husband appears to be back tracking on what he want's to say. My period is due any moment and I have pms, pms for me is me feeling miserable and grumpy and very tearful. I just know that I will cry at the school and look like a complete tit. We have to take George with us too as there is no one to look after him, he's not 100% so not sure how that will be. Please send me "the meeting will go great" vibes.

I think that I've decided in my head to leave it another half term and make a decision during the Christmas holidays, I just don't know what to do for the best.

Hope that everyone is well, I'll report back later.

School visit

Hello all,

Scale the same today 15st 6lbs (216 lbs) that's ok, I would love to see 215 lbs tomorrow though.

Contacted a school for Izzy yesterday and went for a tour and chat with the head teacher today, George is starting at the nursery attached to the school in January so it would make my life easier for Isobel to go here. Its co-ed, the current year 1 classes each have 10 kids in, 6 boys/4 girls each which I think would be perfect for her, smaller with a mix of sexes. It didn't blow me away but then her current school didn't blow me away when I saw it either. The classes could go up to a maximum of 20, I think that this is unlikely.

The head was nice and understanding and said that they'd love to have her there. They suggested that she attends for the day to see how she feels about the school, I think that that is a great idea.

We have the meeting with her current school tomorrow, I'm dreading it, a part of me feels that I'm at fault.

Isobel woke in the night with a nightmare, she kept saying that her dream catcher didn't work, I think that she thought that the dream catcher got rid of bad dreams. She wouldn't tell me what happened in it and took ages and ages to settle. I've told her that I'm looking at other schools for her and I wonder if that is the reason why, I feel like I'm doing everything wrong!

Its a horrible rainy day here today, hope that its nicer where you are!

Back to my lowest low

Morning all,

Weighed in at 15st 6 (216 lbs) this morning, this is my lowest and I've been here at least 3 times, normally just for one day before bouncing up again. I'm determined that I'll be lower tomorrow or the next day or the day after that, I don't want to bounce upwards again.

Have just heard from a friend that she has booked to have a band next month, this is my friend N who I didn't hear from at all after I sent her a message on facebook saying that I've had a band, I worried about not hearing from her for ages and contacted her and everything was fine, seems that she didn't get my last e-mail and knew nothing of my band at all! I told her about my band last week and she said that she had been looking in to it.

I'm pleased for her, hope that she does well.

Am contacting school's for Isobel today, wish me luck!

Have a wonderful Wednesday x

Best followers ever.

You lot are! Thanks so much for your comments yesterday, it means so much to me.

I will meet with the headteacher and try and see what is going on. But I'm also going to start looking for other schools, we may have to wait for the start of the next school year (Sept 11) but if I have a plan in place I will feel better.

I do think that it is a nice school but I think that some schools suits some pupils better than others and I think that that must be the case here.

Isobel seems to understand a lot more now, I spoke to her about it calmly yesterday and she told me about an incident which happened yesterday, she knows that I'm upset and she knows that she needs to behave better, lets just see what happens.

Scale was good today, 15st 7lbs, (217 lbs) am really looking forward to getting under 15st, I would like to do it before my next fill, that's sometime in November, I've not booked it yet.

Hope that everyone else is well, I have an hour to read blogs before going on the school run!

School issues again!

Morning, firstly I'll apologise as I'm really really really angry and I don't think that this will make any sense at all and my u doesn't seem to want to work today so it might make even less sense!

My daughter, Isobel is 5 (6 in December) she's in year 1 at school, this is her second year. If you've been unfortunate to read my blog before I have covered this many times! Isobel goes to a private school, it costs over £6k a year plus extra's, its a girls school, this year her she has 2 teachers who job share, mrs B on mon/tues/weds and Mrs T on weds/thur/fri.

Since she has been in year one (about 5 weeks or so) things seem to have been better, I was called in a couple of weeks ago by Mrs B to talk about Isobel being in trouble, she and 5 other girls were sent to the head teacher. She kept bursting in to song in class and not doing as she was told, she's fine on a one to one basis but not whilst working in a group apparently.

This isn't really a shock to me, she is a challenging child, she's very bright and is very loving and sweet but she can be a horror when the mood takes her. There are 19 in her class and 6 or 7 of them can be a real handful too, it's a hard class to teach I should think.

I spoke to Mrs T on Friday morning and just asked generally how she was doing, Mrs T told me she was doing ok, she has her moments but on the whole pretty good and by no means the worst behaved.

This morning Mrs B pulled me in and asked if we'd got anywhere with having her assessed (the school suggested that she was assessed by a educational psychologist about 5 months ago, this was during a meeting with Paul, I was pissed off about it not least as they expected us to pay £500 for it, we contacted the suggested Psychologist and she wasn't available for a few months anyway) I had thought that this had all been forgotten about. So Mrs B went in to great detail about Isobel's bad behaviour, the singing, the calling out etc and followed every sentence she said by saying that she's not the only one. So perhaps if she's not the only one she might need to look at herself as the other teacher was really positive on Friday. I am absolutely raging about it, I spoke to Paul and have made an appointment to see the head teacher this week, I really really do think that the time has come to move her elsewhere, I don't know where though, she's so happy where she is but its getting ridiculous now, its been going on the whole time that she's been there.
I don't know what they are trying to say, are they saying that there is something wrong with her? I really can't take much more from them.

I just feel desperate and angry, really angry.

I'm now typing one handed as George has come for a hug!

Scale said 15st 8lb's (218 lbs) today, I was out on Saturday so am ok with it really, would like to be a new weight soon, am bored with being around here.

Sorry for the massive moan.

boring, boring, Johnny Depp!

Morning,

Not very much happening with me, doing ok, back down to 15st 7lbs (217 lbs) 1 pound over my lowest, not had much of a loss for a while but think that I need a fill. I'm waiting as I'm away with the kids at my aunts in a couple of weeks and I think I'm very near my sweet spot and I don't want to be getting stuck there (she doesn't know about my band)

I'm going out tonight for Chinese food, I'm looking forward to it but will be sticking with chicken dishes, I can't handle rice or noodles very well. Although I just ate 2 thin slices of toast for breakfast, I had to be careful but it was ok so I may be able to have a little.

I love Johnny Depp, doesn't everyone? I just read this on the internet (he's filming pirates in London at the moment) http://www.dailymail.co.uk/tvshowbiz/article-1318516/Johnny-Depps-surprise-visit-London-primary-school-Captain-Jack-Sparrow.html

What a fantastic guy? I think that I love him even more now!

I'm sorry that I had to link to that particular paper, its a horrible miserable publication commonly known as the Daily Hate! But that article is good and has pictures.

Hope that everyone is well, I'm just trying to get the energy to load up my bag and take George to the zoo, I would prefer to surf the internet all day!

Have a lovely Friday x

More bouncing

Haven't blogged since Friday, really nothing has happened in that time!

My scale is all over the place, up to 15st 8lbs today (218 lbs) not sure why but think it must be hormonal, I'm sure that I did the same last month, the problem is that after a couple of days of the scale going up for no reason I think that I may as well eat whatever I please and then I legitimately gain weight, I'm like a hamster on a wheel! Anyway, am back on track now, it will come down, I wonder how many times there will be an entry in my blog just like this one? Same time next month everyone!

Life is the same as normal, kids ok, had a viewing of the house on Sunday, no good apparently, think that we will take it off the market quite soon, I can't stand the uncertainty of it all. I did some serious decluttering and get rid of lots of stuff so I'm happy about that.

It seems to have suddenly hit me that Christmas is on its way, which means Isobel's birthday is on its way too and as well as Christmas I have a party to organise and even worse, pay for. Her birthday is the 22nd of December but I normally have her party in January, we're so busy around her birthday/Christmas and its something nice to look forward too in bleak January.

Hope that everyone is ok, just off to read what everyone has been doing.