A new low

I'm amazed to say that the scale has moved again, I was worried about it going up after yesterday and would have been delighted if it had read 15st 9lb's (219 lbs) but it read 15st 8lbs. I'm very happy but after having a fairly long plateau its shocking but great.

My little man appears to be on the mend a bit, he has drank a little but still won't eat, everything I offer him he says "hurt my tooth" he did make me dance to a kids program with him for about 20 minutes so I think he is improving, I felt like I'd done an aerobics class after, we were being fish! Hope none of my neighbours saw me!

Paul and Izzy are off camping this weekend, we live in a small village and every year they have a village camping trip, Izzy is so excited about it. George and I will drive up and spend the day with them tomorrow if he is well enough. Camping isn't really for me and they only have a small tent, its also meant to be 6c (43f) tonight!!

She is especially excited that they're going in Paul's car, Paul has a tiny little blue car that he drives to the station and back every day, it does nothing else, its a Ford Ka if anyone knows anything about Brit/European cars and is worth maybe 2k if we're lucky. The school that Izzy attends has a fair few wealthy parents and a fair few more who are very showy and like to drive enormous expensive cars, there must be a least 25% of the cars in the car park worth over £50k, it makes me laugh and a little proud that my daughter is excited to be going in the little blue car, to her its the best car in the world.

I didn't manage to go to the gym last night as Paul was too late back but will be going today just as soon as George goes to sleep (Paul is working from home this morning) I feel very positive just now, I really hope that feeling like this continues.

Hope that everyone has a lovely weekend, have loved ready all the thousand word Thursday posts, I feel sick with envy!!

On some strange anti-plateau island

I'm very very happy to say that the scale said 15st 9lb this morning which is 219 lb's, I had a very good day yesterday, not that hungry (due to TOM I think) ate about 1000 cals which is low for me and was rewarded with a 1 pound loss overnight. I'm really pleased but surprised about how quickly it has come off, I weighed 222 lb's on Monday. I know that this is one of the times that must balance out all of the plateau's, I'm very much enjoying it and long may it reign!

My poorly boy is still a poorly boy and has missed nursery today, he's still not eating or drinking although did have a little juice earlier, he won't take medicine and keeps dramatically exclaiming that he needs to go to the Dr! He's my (just) 3 year old drama queen. This means that I miss the gym but if Paul is home early enough later I will go.

My big girl seems to have started sleep walking, every night since Sunday she's coming in to our room as saying that she can't find something but can't say what she's lost, I take her back to her bed normally and I'm half asleep, Paul took her last night and said she still seemed more asleep than awake. She also had a huge meltdown over nothing this morning which is unlike her, she gets very rude and stroppy but we don't normally get tears, I think that something must be playing on her mind, I wonder if its school related? I'll try and chat to her later.

So, that's all the things happening in my world. Hope that everyone is well x

New low and general moaning.

Firstly, thank you for all your messages about our anniversary, so nice to read!

Yesterday was a bit of a disaster, firstly unexpected TOM decided to arrive, I'm sure it was due, I'm just not very good about remembering when I'm due, as my bf pointed out there would be no re-enacting of the wedding night so not such a bad thing!

Unfortunately, TOM brought a serious case of the the grumps. I knew that Paul had arranged for flowers to be delivered and I was in most of the day until school pick up, went to pick up Izzy and took her and her friend to art club. Got home at 5.30 pm to a card from the florist saying that they had taken the flowers back to the shop and I needed to collect them! I've never ever ever heard of a florist doing that, on the rare occasions I get flowers they normally leave them at the back door. I called the florist and got nowhere, I had no time to go and fetch them so I can only assume that they're rotting somewhere. Paul said that he'd sort it out but did nothing so I have no flowers, he said that I mustn't go and get them and he'd get them sorted for redelivery today. Let's just see if that works.

It kind of spoiled things for me, I know that I sound like a spoilt bitch but I was really upset. Anyway, I made a nice dinner, Paul really enjoyed it, I couldn't eat much, stress and TOM killed my appetite, I bought Ben and Jerry's frozen fish food yoghurt for desert, trying to be good but wasn't really bothered about eating it.

Today the scale said 15st 10lbs (220 lbs) a new low and total loss of 33 pounds. I'm surprised and pleased, I had some cake and biscuits yesterday afternoon, mainly as I missed breakfast and it seemed to really mess me up. Best Friend said today that I could be below 15 stone for Christmas which would mean loosing 11 lbs' I want to be there by the end of October! So that's my goal now.

I wonder if I could do with a small fill, I'm doing ok where I am just now but it feels quite slow. I know that slow is best, think I'll leave it for now.

I've noticed that my scar is fading, it was really quite dark red but recently seems to have faded quite a bit. I really ought to use bio oil on it, I've used it maybe once!

My poor little man isn't at all well, he's getting yet another new tooth, a large back one and won't eat or drink, he's just laying on the rug right now, poor love.

Have become an on line shopaholic, today I received a new mobile phone, 2 Laura Ashley bed sets for Izzy and a new top from Boden for me, I love it, it'd like getting presents brought to my door.

Hope that everyone is well, sorry for moaning!

Not very good title

I struggle with title's, there isn't that much that goes on really so finding a title that's exciting is hard!

Weekend was mad, really really mad. Party went well, saw lots of friends and family, George had a lovely time and got lots of really nice things. The house was trashed, mainly by my 3 year old nephew who I mentioned on my last entry. I sound really mean but I think that there is something wrong, he seems very bright and his speech is really really good for his age but he's hyper all of the time, always on the go, won't listen at all and most of the time you have to physically remove him to get him to stop. I don't know how my sister in law copes, her partner is useless and on Saturday (the day of the party) took himself off in to town for the day. I don't think that he has a major problem but I do think that there could be a bit of adhd or something similar. Discipline is lacking, my sil isn't strong or firm enough with him but I do think that it could be more than that.

I ate the wrong things at the weekend but not to excess really and am holding steady at 15st 12 (222 lbs) hope to be down a little tomorrow as I am back on track today. I did go to the gym on both Saturday and Sunday so hopefully that contributed. George is back at nursery now so I'll be going on Tuesday and Thursday this week.

Its my wedding anniversary tomorrow, 8 long years. My wedding was just before digital camera's were very wide spread so I don't have any to post to show you I'm afraid, I was probably 30 lb's heavier than I am now. Perhaps I'll try my dress on for the kids!

Have a lovely day all x

OMG, having relations to stay.

Today is George's 3rd birthday party (his actual birthday is tomorrow) I know that I am biased but George is lovely, he's sweet and gentle and shy and calm and just scrummy, I could happily eat him.

Paul's sister, her other half and their son have come up for the party (they live about 180 miles away) their son is the opposite of George, more of a typical boy I suppose, he is a real handful, since they arrived last night its been a nightmare, he didn't go to sleep until after 11pm last night. He kept Izzy awake most of that time mainly as he and Izzy were insisting that the sleep in the same room, I didn't know that he had been moved in to her room until I found out 2 hours later and moved him out, it was awful.

George is a little emotional at the moment, he's getting a big back tooth and that seems to be the cause, since they all woke this morning, Izzy and Luke have been rotten to him and he's spent most of the morning crying. I've warned them that if anything else happens they aren't coming to his party.

I'm really not enjoying it! I may have to go on the gin to get me through!

Scale is ok today, 15st 12lb's (222 lbs), I've bounced a little but didn't have a great day yesterday, I was baking all day and had to sample my wears!

Have a lovely day all, wish me luck!

Its back to school day and good news.

Good morning lovely ladies,

Isobel goes back to school today, she's almost on the ceiling with excitement, she has been off for 8 weeks though so not surprising. I'm not really looking forward to it but Paul will be coming to drop off today, mainly as we have so much stuff to take in, school bag, pe kit, gym kit, wellies and her epipen and medicine (Izzy has a peanut allergy) and we have pass to through the area where the new class are and when Izzy was in this class last year it was a nightmare, parents everywhere crying! I also have George to keep hold of too.

George also goes back to school today, we have to give notice of our intent for him to leave at the end of term, Paul has been arranging this letter 8 weeks ago, needless to say that he's upstairs hastily typing it now, we leave for school in 30 minutes.

I'm trying to eat breakfast, I have great yoghurt, granola and lots of lovely fruit, I feel so sick about everything that I can't eat it, maybe its stress tightness!

Good news on the scale front, this morning it said 15st 11.5 lbs (222.5 lbs) I'm very happy and very glad that the scale is finally moving for me. I'm going to go to the gym later.

Paul and I are viewing 2 houses in the area that I fancy today, there is a fantastic state school in this area too. I have a friend who is a teacher and apparently this is the best rated school in the area and she feels that we would be mad to not put the children in there if we get places (and its free) At least today we will get an idea if the houses in this area are for us.

Gosh, don't I go on about a load of boring old stuff? This was meant to be a blog about my band but I find it very cathartic to get the contents of my brain in black and white!

Have a lovely day all, xx

Big thanks and I've left plateau island!

Firstly, thank you so much for all your lovely messages on my last post, just reading them makes me cry, I'm so hurt for her and of course she has no clue which is how it should be.

After everything that happened in her first year and now this I'm really strongly leaning to moving her, George will start at the nursery of a mixed school after Christmas and I'm sorely tempted to enrol Isobel too.

Paul isn't keen, he thinks that every time there is a problem I'll be looking to move her, he has a point, I toyed with the idea of moving her the whole of the last school year.

In fact I'm having day dreams of selling our house here, moving to an area near town which I really like (this would mean a smaller house) where George's school is meaning that I could walk them both to school everyday, I would complain about this in the rain and snow obviously!!

Again, Paul isn't so sure, he likes the area but wants a house there which is about 3 times our budget, I'm trying to convince him that a period house which is a bit smaller but has the garden he wants would be better for all of us. Wish me luck!

My scale gave me 15st 13 lbs (223 lbs) this morning, I'm very happy but can't help but think its about time, I was pretty much stuck for 3 weeks, not helped in the last week by me having a couple of eat all you can days!

Am going to try and get out to do something active with the kids today, we went to a farm yesterday, it also had rides and playgrounds and other stuff for the kids, we were out most of the day until it rained. I came back with bright red cheeks and looked sunburnt, the farm was really exposed and I think that it was probably wind burn!

I was planning to take them to an indoor soft play type place but the sky is blue so we'll hopefully do some walking.

Thanks again for all your messages, it means so much.

Have a good day xx