This morning I went shopping with a friend, bought a new bag, a dress (size UK 18! Bit tight but nice) leggings (size UK 16!) a top (size UK 20 - boo!) and other bits, was really nice. Picked up George from new nursery, I asked if he'd been good and they said that was he ever anything but good? It's true he is a good sweet boy.
Got home, got a call from Isobel's school (problems at Izzy's school have been ongoing for the last year and a half - the whole time she's attended) its the second day of term! They are concerned about her, her behaviour has been awful today (to be fair she seems to have developed a bad cough this morning) but they are alarmed by what she has said, she was told off for something or other and burst in to tears and said that everyone hates her and she was going to kill herself. She followed this up by saying that she hates her brother (this is a regular thing apparently) and she is going to cut him and told a couple of her class mates that she was going to cut them too. WTF do I say to that? I went to the school early and spoke with her with the teacher present (izzy was really angry as me being there meant that she wasn't going to a school friends house for tea) I didn't get very far with her, I think that she was feeling rotten and was just hitting out but she is 6! just 6! She knows about death but how does she know about killing oneself? Have no idea where she has heard this, she is a very bright girl but still.
I feel dreadful, what a bloody awful mother I am. I had a horrible miserable weekend and maybe that has rubbed off on her, I'm just at a loss as to know what to do.
What I did think that I could do was spend a few hours with her every Saturday, just her and me, Paul can do the same with George and perhaps Paul does something with Izzy on a Sunday or we all go out together. I keep writing here how much the kids fight, I just don't know what to do.
Feels better to write it down, I just have no clue, my Mum things that I'm blowing it out of all proportion and shouldn't dwell on it!
No need to reply, probably best ignored!